Birthday blah blah

Yay! It is my birthday! Another year of being awesome, isn’t it? 😉 Well that wasn’t exactly the case a few hours ago. Why? I’ll explain!

When I was a little girl and when first learned about the days and months, I began a countdown to my birthday. It usually used to start a month before my birthday and trust me I’d be so excited about my birthday that I literally used to jump and shout “5 days left, 4 days left… tomorrow is my birthday” and finally “It is my birthday!” It was fun during those childhood days when birthdays meant that you got to go to school in clothes of your choice when everyone else wore the uniform. You got to distribute chocolates to all your classmates and teachers. You were the celebrity of the day. I enjoyed my birthdays and I always looked forward to it.

Back to the present.

2016 went in the blink of an eye and I think 2017 is no better. No countdowns to birthday this time because I didn’t realize that my birthday was almost here. And yesterday I suddenly realized that another year of my life was now over. I was no longer a kid, no longer a teenager and no longer a young adult either. I felt that I had done nothing with my life. Okay I know I was being harsh with myself. I thought about all dreams that I had as a little girl. I always wanted to achieve something great in life. That was what I always said. But when I did a reality check, I didn’t feel so. I focused on all the negatives, on all the things that didn’t go right and on all the failures. I almost cried. My friend had to point at the brighter side to make me realize that it wasn’t so bad after all.

From my last birthday to today, I did write my own book. I did get my own website. I did win some contests at work. I did go on a trip. I did attend a few blogger meets. I did meet some amazing people. Not so bad right?

Even in the moments that were not great, I had people along with me who made me feel good. Yes, I fell sick a lot of times. But I had my mom who took care of me like I was a little kid all over again. In my difficult times I know that I have friends who will help me or cheer me up. That makes it awesome right.

I may not have achieved something great in life. There are a lot of people who have achieved a lot more than what I have achieved. But the more I think about it, the more I realize that everyday makes a difference. I laugh, I cry. I smile, I frown. I succeed, I fail. I fall, I rise. But I am being me. The good, the bad, the bruised, the scars it is what makes me who I am. I’m not getting old, I’m just getting more awesome. Don’t you think so?

There is this quote from the book “The Time Keeper” by Mitch Albom which I really liked.

“It is never too late or too soon. It is when it is supposed to be.”

This birthday I promise myself to look at brighter side, to make a difference each day no matter how small it is. This birthday, I promise to be more awesome.

P.S. I now remember that I made a 25 by 25 list and I’m sure I have hardly ticked off any of those.

P.P.S. I’m not 25 years old. Nope. Not yet. There is still time before Quarter life crises starts.

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