The Living Alone Diaries – Of late sunsets, cooking for one and discovering new places
A lot of things have changed for me in the last few days – living in a different country far away from loved ones, struggling to find a semblance of a routine and most importantly trying to wrap my head around the fact that it is still bright at 9 pm. Like I said, a lot has changed! Amidst all the chaos of living alone, I’m trying to find myself again.
I still can’t believe that it has already been over a fortnight since I moved to Germany. It isn’t something new. I’ve done this before, in the exact same city but something about it all feels different. Maybe after over 2 years of always having people around me, living alone seems a little lonely.
The last few days in Bangalore were stressful to say the least- so stressful that I couldn’t really do all the things that I wanted to before I left and I fell sick, that the meticulous packer in me with all the lists forgot a few things that were necessary. I knew feeling sad was a part of the deal because it is never easy to stay away from the ones you love, but I thought I’d be a little more excited of this new adventure.
If I’d go by the little and not so little things that have happened over the last few days, I think I’d have a story for each day. Perhaps I should make a series of posts just for each day! If there is one thing that I’m really trying to get used to – it is the length of the day. The last time when I was here, I was annoyed with the fact that the sun set before I even got back home from work. But this time around I’m trying to make sense of the sun shining brightly as I type this at 9 pm. I’m glad that I finally get to watch the sunset sky and most importantly I’ve learned to wake up at sunrise and go to sleep at sunset – because of which I now wake up at 5.30 am- often before my alarm goes off.
I’ve also started walking more than I used to and in the process discovered parts of this city that I never knew before. I’ve walked so much that my shoes that seemed quite sturdy have already worn out 🙁 If you’ve known for any length of time now, you must know that I absolutely adore nature and I can’t stop clicking a zillion pictures and I’ve been doing just that since I arrived here. I try to find a window seat on the side of the bus where I can see a sunflower field on the way to work and often when I am back I just loiter around the city finding new streets, new parks and gardens while also finding new ways to reach the riverside which was my favourite place to be the last time I was here.
There have been challenges too- especially ones associated with cooking. Cooking for one is a struggle – especially at times when you don’t have the utensils and containers of choice and also when you cannot buy a few veggies in quantities that you like! I’m missing my all time best friend in the kitchen- my pressure cooker and I’m eagerly waiting to meet it again. Cooking has now turned into a creative exercise of trying to figure out how to use the same ingredients and make different dishes out of them without being bored and also ensuring that I have at least some kind of balanced diet. Any suggestions and recipes are most welcome!
I’ve managed to have some adventures too. In these last few days, I’ve managed to go on a little trip, run to catch a train and stand on the train the entire length of the journey. That is a story for another day!
In the last fortnight or so, I’ve learned a little more about myself. This is my first time actually living alone- I’ve lived away from home before, but never truly alone- there was always someone around. But now here I am trying to search online for answers on how to do things(today’s was how to put the duvet inside the duvet cover easily after struggling for 15 minutes), trying to converse in the few German words that I know and trying to learn a little more each day.
I haven’t written much here for a while now, but I thought write about the last few days would be a good place to start. There are a lot of struggles too with living alone so far away from home. But as I stare at the setting sun from my balcony as I write this, I’m awed at the beauty that surrounds me and I feel grateful for the present, for the opportunities and for new adventures.
Hoping to write more often here. How have you been doing? What is something that you are looking forward to these days?
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