#AtoZChallenge : Phosphenes
When I decided to move to the city, nothing prepared me for all the changes that were coming my way. Life had changed in ways I had never imagined. The big city with its many people never ceases to surprise me. Though it has been a while, I still gape in awe when I see the tall buildings that seem to reach for the sky. Life doesn’t just move here, it runs and I struggle to keep up the pace.
Though the city has something new to offer everyday, I don’t like it as much as I love home. The frantic pace of life makes me anxious. The city scares me. I feel strange in this place and somehow I feel unwelcome. Often, I think of giving it all up and going back home. But I know that I can’t do that. I can’t let go off something that I’ve worked so hard for. I can’t let go of something that has given me a purpose in life.
But I can’t help thinking about home for I miss it. It is when I think about home that memories come rushing into my mind like they had always been on their toes, ready to be summoned at the slightest thought. I can’t help but think about the times when we were kids – the times when life was relaxed and we had no worries, no cares. Those games we played until we had to be dragged back into our houses. I miss those days and I miss you!
I think you’d love the city more than I do. You’ve always been amazed with new things. How I wish you were here for I feel lonely without you. Why did you have to go away? There was no time even for a goodbye. You just disappeared. Rumour had it that you’d gone to the city and now that I’m here I hope to find you, though that hope seems to dwindle when I realize the enormity of my search.
The bright lights of the streets greet me, as I walk along trying to find a familiar face. But it is all hazy. I’m reminded of how we used to close our eyes and press them until we saw phosphenes. I rub my eyes again. Is it you that I see? Or is it just my mind?
Phosphenes : The luminous floating stars, zigzags, swirls, spirals, squiggles, and other shapes that are seen when closing the eyes tight and pressing them with fingers
Origin : Greek
I’m participating in the A to Z Challenge again this year. This is my third time participating in the challenge. I’m going with the theme of “Rare, unusual and beautiful words from various languages”