#AtoZChallenge : Veni Vidi Vinci
I thought that I had made up my mind. But little did I realize how difficult it was to stick to that decision.
I had convinced myself that I would chase my dreams and turn them into reality and the decision that I had made was taking me closer to it. I was proud of myself for being courageous to make a big decision. But all of that pride, all of that courage just kept diminishing everyday.
Because I chose to listen to what people had to say.
“Really Alana? Are you serious? It may not work out you know”, said one.
“Do you think that you are good enough? You just write because that is your hobby”, said another.
“How can you choose that? You are an engineer. Writing is not what you are supposed to do”, added another.
Some laughed. Some mocked. And my doubts only began to increase.
I could choose to let it go and stick to what I was doing now. My comfort zone was indeed comfortable. I didn’t know if I was good enough to take up the next assignment. Change was not easy.
But how then I could I live my life to the fullest if I wasn’t ready to embrace the opportunities that I was offered?
If it wouldn’t work out, at least I would learn something from my mistakes, at least I’d know what wouldn’t work out of me. But what if it worked out? What if I made it big and my dreams would all become real? Wouldn’t those same people come and tell me how awesome I was and how proud they were of me? And they would definitely add “Did I not tell you that you will succeed?”
People change according to circumstances.
But I wasn’t doing this for people. I was doing it for me. Success or failure would all be mine. I decided not to listen to what others had to say and make my own judgments about what was good for me.
Though difficult, I promised to give my best and to not give up. I knew in my heart that some day my work would be rewarded if I was genuinely passionate and dedicated to it.
And then someday I could say – Veni Vidi Vinci.
I came, I saw, I conquered.
I’m participating in the A to Z Challenge and all through April I’ll be writing about the Life and Times of a Twenty something! What are you best memories or expectations from your twenties? Let me know in the comments.