Can I hit reset? #WordsMatter
20 years ago, I wanted to be so many things, but now, I’d rather be just me. As a kid, I’d never stopped dreaming. There were so many things that I wanted to be and there were so many things that I wanted to do. If someone asked me what I wanted to be, I always had an answer though a different one. It would go from being a teacher to an astronaut, from a doctor to a writer, from a botanist to pilot – there were so many things that I wanted to be. I always wanted to grow up because there were so many things that I thought I could do. But if you ask me now what I want to be, my answer may sound ironic for I want to be a child again.
I’ve known the reality that being an adult can be difficult and would have troubles of its own. But I was never prepared for the craziness that life has become these days. I miss those days of childhood where I had no worries or cares. Those were the days were I could smile without fear, laugh without care and cry my heart out when I was sad. Unlike now, when I have to hide my tears, I have a smile plastered on my face and laughter is often restricted to LOL on the keyboard. Life seems to have become so busy that there is no time to just sit down quietly and just enjoy the moment without worrying about the next. Hello adulthood, this is not what I signed up for!
Growing up, I was always this curious who asked a lot of questions, wondered about how things worked and why they were the way they were. I’d often let my imagination roam freely and make up my own stories and create a world of my own. But that curious mind seems to have been lost. Ideas don’t come to my mind as easily as they once would. And trust me, it hurts. As a child, I thought the many rules that I was supposed to follow were coming in the way of my freedom, but now, as an adult the fact that I can’t spend enough time on things that I love to do, the fact that I can’t let my imagination run freely hurts. I’ve often tried to little things to make things better, but then the whole thing of not finding time happens again. At the beginning of each, I plan to do something new or to do something better. There are so many ideas that I want to bring to life, but then things happen and my life comes in the way.
Being an electronics engineer, the one thing I’m often supposed to do when the hardware doesn’t work the way it is supposed to it to reset or restart it. This is done to bring back the system to its initial state- one without errors or any issues. There are times when I wish, I could hit reset and start life over again my way. But life doesn’t work that way. It just goes on. There is no way back and we can only move forward. Life seems to have become complicated and we don’t have time anymore to live life. We manage just to stay alive.
I know I cannot start over again as a child, but I often wonder if I could make a fresh start and do things that I really want to do rather than living a life full of complaints and regrets? Now that again is a complicated decision. Have you ever felt this way? If not reset, can I just hit refresh once in a while?
Ending this post with a poem called Leisure by William Henry Davies. I first read this poem in my English Text Book in school. But these words have remained fresh in my memory even now.
What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.
No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.
No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.
No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night.
No time to turn at Beauty’s glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance.
No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.
A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.
I received this tag from Balaka who blogs at Trina Looks Back. It’s my pleasure to pass on this tag to Pragya who blogs at Yoga with Pragya. There are 29 of us on this Blog Hop and it will be spread over 3 days – 1st, 2nd and 3rd November 2019. Do follow the #WordsMatter Blog Hop and prepare to be surprised!