#AtoZChallenge : Thinking out loud
“Mom, my friend is getting married next month. Shall I wear that pink saree for her wedding?”
“Forget about the saree. First tell me when will you get married?”
“What is the hurry Mom? I’ve just started my career. Give me some time.”
“Aren’t your friends also of your age? Aren’t they getting married?”
“Yes. But I don’t want to get married now.”
“Look Alana, I’m tired of telling you. Its time you realize such things on your own” and she hangs up the phone.
Not a good start to the week. Mondays are difficult because of the Monday morning blues and now this argument doesn’t make it any better. Why did I even mention to my mom that my friend was getting married? I know how such conversations had ended before. I must be more careful hereafter.
I really don’t understand what the hurry is all about. No, I’m not against the idea of getting married. I’d love to find that special someone who would be there for me in good times and in bad. Even after I’ve found that special someone, I need some time before getting married. But why doesn’t Mom understand that?
She keeps telling I can’t wait forever to find someone right. The more I delay getting married, the fewer are my chances of finding my soul mate it seems. Why? How? I don’t know.
Now that she keeps telling me about this, I wonder if I will ever find someone who will love and accept me the way I am. Will he accept my faults and failings and yeah not to forget, my craziness ? Will he support and encourage me to follow my dreams? Will he love me always? Or are my expectations too high?
I don’t want to meet a guy with the intention of getting married. I want to meet someone, be friends and maybe then we’ll fall in love.
“But will I ever find the love of my life?”
“You will if you go out and find someone instead of sitting with those books all day!”, says my friend.
Oops! I didn’t realize that I was thinking out loud!
I’m participating in the A to Z Challenge and all through April I’ll be writing about the Life and Times of a Twenty something! What are you best memories or expectations from your twenties? Let me know in the comments.