#AtoZChallenge : Keep holding on
“I give up!”
I scream as I write it out on a piece of paper. I don’t know what I am feeling right now.
Is it anger?
Is it sadness?
Is it pain?
Or is it all of these emotions combined?
I feel like crying but the tears won’t come out. I feel like screaming out loud but I seem to have lost my voice. I want to run away- I want to run away from all this madness. I want to give up.
Nothing seems to be going right. There is too much to do at work and it isn’t going the way it was supposed to. My health is taking a turn for worse – the constant headaches, the frequent fever, the fatigue all makes me feel low. I feel irritated and angry and I end up fighting with anyone that I talk. I’ve hurt a lot of people as well. I feel bad for all of it, but I don’t know what to do.
Is running away from all this an option?
I need to clear my head and for that I need to go some place quiet. So I decide to take a walk down the road to the park. I sit there and take a deep breath. But I realize that I need someone to talk to. I call up my friend and I begin to pour my heart out. The patient listener that she is, she calmly listens to what I have to say. I can’t stop crying though she is trying to console me. But slowly I begin to feel better. May be all I wanted was for someone to understand what I’m going through. She tries to cheer me reminding me of all the funny things we did and said earlier.
I think again.
Is running away from problems the way to solve them? No definitely not. Instead, we need to be strong and face them. May be at times we need that push to face our problems may be in the form of a friend or may be sometimes we have to be our own friend and keep holding on instead of giving up.
I’m participating in the A to Z Challenge and all through April I’ll be writing about the Life and Times of a Twenty something! What are you best memories or expectations from your twenties? Let me know in the comments.